A T T I T U D E

Ok, everyone said " You think 2 is bad wait until she is 3". I just laughed.. yea right. What can be worse than the "terrible" two's? Well, I now have the answer. Its is 3! Since turning three she has developed this attitude about everything. I ask her to do something simple like pick up her shoes. And her response to this is " EXCUSE ME?" Along with that is her hip stuck out with her hand on it and a head wobble. I just look at her... where is this coming from..... She has also developed the "temper tantrum" thing perfectly. She has gotten the hang of throwing herself down on the floor and pouting. Or she throws down her hands, slumps her shoulders and cries... " momma why..."But along with all of this attitude and fit throwing is some cuteness also. Her new saying is " That's what I'm talkin 'bout!" hahaha... every time she gets a snack or something she wants she says that! Its the funniest thing. And you ask where she got this from? Jacob. Also, she has had many lives in the past apparently. We were outside the other day with Ebony (my dog) and she says " when I was a dog, I would drink my water out of a bowl too!" Then one day after washing her hands she says " when I was a momma and you were a baby, I would pick you up and wash your hands!" I just have to laugh at her. She cracks me up! She is growing up so fast. I cannot believe she will be 4 next year. And then a year after that she starts school! Wow. Where does all the time go?

Kadence's new suit

Here ya go Aunt Sissy! Thank you so very much!

Deep inside

I just want to write a few things to get them off my chest. The past day or so has been extremly hard for some reason. Nothing has really happened but I feel this loneliness setting in my chest. I miss my mom. I miss being able to pick up the phone when I had a bad day and complain to her. I feel like the world is spinning so fast around me..... I don't know how many times I have picked up my phone and then just sat it back down... I can no longer call her. I feel so empty inside but yet at the same time I feel as if I am about to explode. Who is going to fill that void... who do I call... I don't think anyone can take her place...If only I had one more day... just one. I could tell her thank you, I am sorry, I love you, I need you.....but I can't. I hope she knows. Kadence is growing so fast. I have no one to guide me.. Who do I ask the silly questions... Like is this normal for a 3 year old? I miss her so much... I need her.

one more pic

Here is another pic of Kadence this morning. You can kind of see all the little things a little better! She looked like beetlejuice! LOL

EEG

Also, today Kadence had her EEG done at BSA. We went around 7 this morning. She had all these little things attatched to her little head. The picture kind of shows the ones on the sides. They wrapped her whole head in a bandage. She was such a trooper though. She sat there for 2 hrs with those on her head. She did really well. We watched a lot of cartoons! I have to make an appointment with a neurologist in Lubbock for the results. I will let everyone know what the results are!

Just wanted to share a picture of Kadence and I with ya'll. Every once in a while I get to sneek a few kisses in on her!